Happy Good Friday + Parents Longing

Hello readers!
First of all I want to greet you Happy Good Friday! 😇 May you alll feel the graces form God's sacrifice.
How are you guys today?
I want to tell you all something that stung in my heart ever since I sit in the church this morning. You know what was it caused by?
I say a young lady in her 20s I guess, walked in the door with her beauty dress and make up and her proud. Really amusing.
But then I saw something really scratched my heart. Far behind her there was an old man in his 60s I guess, limping followed her daughter. Why I called her daughter? Because that lady would look back sometimes and gestured her father to walked faster.
What do you think?
She was just made a sign to told her father to walk faster, instead of helping. Then I felt something burnt in my eyes and heart. How could it be?
I just straight remember my parents. Oh my God, I prayed to God so I wouldn't turn to be like that lady. Please, I just pray for my parents. I imagine how in the past my parents patiently taught me how to made a step, how to walk. They would patiently wait me until I can reached them. And if I fell down they were watchful enough to catched me anytime.
And how could we return their efforts, their kindness, their sacrifice for us like that.
Don't forget that when we grow up it means our parents are getting older too.
In this Good Friday I want you all to remind our parents especially our Jesus and God Father grace and sacrifice for us, the one full of sins.
God bless you all lovelies ♡
Bye! ^^

Apakah itu bukan keberuntungan?

Dulu, dulu sekali.
Aku pernah merasakan perasaan aneh itu. Saat di mana kupikir hanya kata "baka" (Japanese=bodoh) yang terlintas saat pertanyaan itu terlontar dari mulutmu. Sederhana wicaranya, tapi begitu rumit kuterima.

"Kau menyukai dia ya?"

Baka. "Kenapa bisa berpikir seperti itu?

"Hanya ingin bertanya saja. Sepertinya kau memang menyukainya"

Baka. "Jangan terlalu percaya diri. Aku tak menyukainya"

"Percaya diri? Aku memperhatikan, dan kupikir kau sudah mengutarakannya"

Baka. "Jadi kau tahu saat itu aku menanyakan apa dia sudah punya pacar atau belum? Itu tidak seperti yang kau pikirkan. Itu ulah teman-temanku."

Lalu seketika kau pergi begitu saja. Seperti angin yang memang hanya datang untuk memberikan sensasi dingin, lalu pergi setelah keinginannya tercapai. Tapi jujur, aku tak suka perasaan dingin seperti itu. Menenggelamkan namun tidak membunuh. Hanya membuatku terombang-ambing di tengah air tanpa bisa menyentuh dasar atau menyeruak ke permukaan laut.

Setelah bertahun-tahun, kupikir aku sudah terbiasa dengan perasaan itu karena terpaksa melanjutkan hidup bersama. Menjadi bagian dari rasa itu. Tapi selayaknya gelombang yang terkadang menghampiri, sensasi dingin perasaan itu bisa menjadi sangat dingin hingga memilukan saat dia menginginkanku merasakannya.

Kuharap itu hanya ada di dunia fiksi aksaraku. Semoga kau aman tersimpan dan nyaman untuk terus berada hingga tahun-tahun selanjutnya. Sampai aku tahu bagaimana caranya untuk menyelamatkan diri dari dunia fantasi ini.
Tetaplah ada sampai nanti

The Impact of Luhan's Case on me

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Hello readers! ^^
First of all, I want to make sure that this article is based on my opinion as an EXO-L
I mean, it's my territory, so no bashing, there's no intention to hurt someone.
I am typing out my mind about Luhan's case from my perspective as HunHan lover

I was thinking

Sunny. Breeze. Wind flows~
Here I am, waiting for someone while watching people pass over in front of me. Talking, laughing, perfume scents wherever, contained the dry wind.
It's already 45 minutes I was sitting in this 1st building terrace.
Wait a second, what am I doing exactly right now? Think. Okay I was thinking all this time, about the announcement on July 16th, about the President Election in my country, about the Palestine issue, about my final exam for religion class, and so on. Oh yeah, almost forget about my teacher who will be coming here to take handle for my juniors' scholarship program.
Hm, now this question zoning around my in my head: will they be like me?
Well, I hope they had enough beliefs to hold on their ways later. Let's hope!
*grace everywhere*
By the way, the weather of today feels good enough :)

What happen in Palestine? What exactly happen in Gaza?

Well, so many days I didn't access the media network till two days ago I heard about the attack from Israel to Palestine. What happen there? A re-do war? I mean as attack of guns and bombs and the other dangerous weapons?
Pray to the God, all of us, beyond all the post and fear, all we have to do and all we can do is Pray. We can't babling about anything and anyone, cause this is happening and God will never give any detention to us.
Let's Pray and send them strenght through our Prays
May God bless you all there O:)

(Again) Uncertainty Feels

Tonight, it feels soooo unbearable.
This afternoon before the religion class, one of my friend, Stella, told me about the confirmed news about  Exo's Baekhyun and SNSD's Taeyeon relationship as boy-girlfriend.

Crowded mind

In this dawn I want to feel those refreshing wind
But with these things in my mind, even a hard wind couldn't make me smile

A simple lyric says this: "you want to leave, I know it's very easy.."
How I wish I could just turn a life-mode in this music session and just let everything go~

"If you still want to leave, don't block my feels. In the end, I'll just pretend that it's okay.."
Really, another song made me try hard to swallow my feels back