The Scratch of Forever

Hello everybody, it's me again.
Back with a super sad news I got two days ago. Remember about my last post of my beloved doctor? She has passed away, she would be rest in peace for the next days. She came back to The One who sent her to this world. Truthfully, I was shocked when I heard the news from my mom. I tried to find many informations as I can get, thinking that it would be false information. But no, she really did passed away.
There's old saying about the good ones will return to God sooner, and sometimes I do believe that. Good memories, lovable times, all the feels to her, it's nothing more than God's love to her. Let the good memories remain with the family or anyone who know her.
Today, I was following the funeral ceremony, and as strong as I try to hold back my tears, I can't. Even now I still feel it in my eyes. I saw people who love her, her mother, her husband, her family and other. She's beautiful, her smile and her heart, I know exactly all these people sure had ever experience the good times with her, shared by her, that's why they cry.
Rest in peace my beautiful doctor, we senr the prayers for you, you already with your Father now.

That's all I want to share for today, thanks for read my post and until next time. Bye! 👋

Hello From a Long Time Hiatuser

Hi everybody! 👋

I am trully sorry for not updating like what? 2 years? I hope it's not that long time.
Well, today I was meeting with my forever beloved doctor since I was kid, dr. A, just let's say it's her name.
She came to my current living town yesterday for his work duty. But she want to meet me and had a good talk session, which is sometimes we did in the old days.
It's a good talk and a good food actually because I had never been in the restaurant before, because of the restaurant's standard price which already too expensive for me. Poor boarding house girl 😂.
The most pint point for me was, when our conversation somehow reaches the posibility of struggles that I'll face in my journey. She said, it's going to be something around love things I guess, cause you never had a boyfriend before, she said neither you had a not on same beliefs relationship or you had a 'can't have him' relationship a.k.a one sided love.
I don't know why, maybe she has the sixth sense or super sensitive feels about me. I feel like I want to laugh, laughing out loud so hard. It feels nothing but true to the deep of my heart. I've been experiencing that. The both thing exactly.
The one I had watch and growing feelings on since high school (aww those days ><) is currently in a happier relationship with a supper positive girl who never could be reach by me. We have a huge different standard I guess (the girl, I mean), so maybe that's what he's been looking for in girls, therefore he never confess anything to me. But it's okay, I am in my way to live my life and trying to loose the memories tie with him.
The second struggle that she said I'll probably face, honestly it's like my everyday temptation in my current town. You know the feels when you have your own belief that no one hardly understand but you decided to hold that beliefs in your life? Well that's what I feel.
Boys and men around this town such have a different perspectives from mine. Eventhough they are really beautiful phisically and morally, but there's this one thing that make us different for sure. It's okay I'll find my other half in the right time. God had prepared him for me.

So, that's all my short story for today. I hope it'll give you something to think about 😊.
Have a great day everyone and until next time. Bye 👋