Hi everybody! 👋
I am trully sorry for not updating like what? 2 years? I hope it's not that long time.
Well, today I was meeting with my forever beloved doctor since I was kid, dr. A, just let's say it's her name.
She came to my current living town yesterday for his work duty. But she want to meet me and had a good talk session, which is sometimes we did in the old days.
It's a good talk and a good food actually because I had never been in the restaurant before, because of the restaurant's standard price which already too expensive for me. Poor boarding house girl 😂.
The most pint point for me was, when our conversation somehow reaches the posibility of struggles that I'll face in my journey. She said, it's going to be something around love things I guess, cause you never had a boyfriend before, she said neither you had a not on same beliefs relationship or you had a 'can't have him' relationship a.k.a one sided love.
I don't know why, maybe she has the sixth sense or super sensitive feels about me. I feel like I want to laugh, laughing out loud so hard. It feels nothing but true to the deep of my heart. I've been experiencing that. The both thing exactly.
The one I had watch and growing feelings on since high school (aww those days ><) is currently in a happier relationship with a supper positive girl who never could be reach by me. We have a huge different standard I guess (the girl, I mean), so maybe that's what he's been looking for in girls, therefore he never confess anything to me. But it's okay, I am in my way to live my life and trying to loose the memories tie with him.
The second struggle that she said I'll probably face, honestly it's like my everyday temptation in my current town. You know the feels when you have your own belief that no one hardly understand but you decided to hold that beliefs in your life? Well that's what I feel.
Boys and men around this town such have a different perspectives from mine. Eventhough they are really beautiful phisically and morally, but there's this one thing that make us different for sure. It's okay I'll find my other half in the right time. God had prepared him for me.
So, that's all my short story for today. I hope it'll give you something to think about 😊.
Have a great day everyone and until next time. Bye 👋
